Is this Love I am feeling?

Dear all,

Have you ever been in the state of feeling weird, twisted and bad? They are all strange feelings, aren't they? I did some readings about this, and I found that it describes the condition when someone chooses not to believe the truth about a situation.

Well, I talked to one of my closest girlfriend last night. We had a long chat keeping each other's up with our latest update. So now as she requested, I finally decided to let everything written so that whatever we discussed last night will be clearly delivered to her and whoever she wants him to understand.

Let it be general here, she keeps asking herself about "Is this Love that I'm feeling?". Semua orang pun mesti pernah rasa benda yang sama kan? Maybe you have been in love, but for whatever reason, you refused to call it love?

So I think this is where strange feelings occur especially when your heart desires love, but your mind says no to that. See, nampak tak macam mana kita cuba deny satu kebenaran dengan cuba mewujudkan bermacam-macam excuses?

To my dear girlfriend, you are completely right. Maybe it was too soon after being hurt. Luka lama baru je nak sembuh, and your heart is still feeling numb, longing to rekindle a past love, so when a new love comes, you could not really recognize the feeling. Or maybe you takut you may get hurt again. I totally understand that.

All I can say is, mend your broken heart first. Kalau perlu untuk pentingkan diri sendiri, just go on. Heartbreak is exquisitely painful. There is no single injury on your body, but your heart is totally smashed out. So you really need to be strong to overcome the emotional feeling at the end of a relationship.

I rasa tak ada cara yang spesifik untuk sembuhkan luka dekat hati. It will naturally recovers when the time comes. Tapi tak bermakna dalam masa yang sama, you tak boleh develop perasaan cinta yang baru kan? Siapa tahu, the new love might be the catalyst that helps to boost up the healing process? Worth trying isn't it?

So dear, it's okay to cry, grieve and be sad, but it will get easier each day. Trust me. Keep the chance open, and I believe you will finally find a relationship that works for you. Go out and find new date yea! I love you, everybody loves you and you should love yourself more.

I need to love myself  before anyone else.

Mado Mado Squad!!

Hello there!

A quick update to inform you about what I am up to this week. I'm going for a camping trip with my fellow Mado Squad members at Wollondily River tomorrow. Uiit, Mado Squad? Apa tu? 

Haaa, meh sini nak explain. Dekat sini ada sebijik rumah Malaysian dekat Madoline Street yang jadi tempat pengumpulan hampir semua singles dekat Wollongong. Kedudukan strategic, betol-betol dekat dengan uni. So, sesape abis kelas ke, mati kutu kat opis ke, memang tu la tempat menyinggah hilangkan bosan or makan-makan.

We are just like one big family helping each others out in any good or bad situation. Ahli Mado Squad takde la tetap. Sesape yang selalu tunjuk muka dekat situ memang automatically di recruit sebagai member. hehehe. Yuran keahlian pun takde. Singgah je. Everybody welcomes you there.

Antara ahli Mado Squad.
Farewell gift to Abang Sham. Sweet kan?? -credit to Kerul

Syaratnya, kalau lapar kena masak sendiri. Kalau dahaga, kena bancuh air sendiri. Kalau baik hati, masak lebih untuk orang lain makan. hehehe. Biasanya memang masak macam kenduri. Lepas tu makan ramai-ramai. Meriah!

Semua dah macam adik-beradik dekat sini. Bertengkar and bahan-membahan tu dah jadi rutin. Tapi semua tu untuk meriahkan suasana je. Nampak tu siap ada 2 orang polis yang menjaga ketenteraman awam. Diorang pun di recruit jadi members jugak tau. Jangan memain!hehehe..:p

Ohh well, nak cakap pasal camping sebenanye. Hopefully it will turns out all good and interesting. Satu malam je pun. Kalau ada masa balik nanti I update ye. Till then, see you later when I come back. Tata.

Oops, I did it again!!

Dear all,

I just made another online purchase from Maysaa London today. It's the signature Maysaa scarf, described as "long awaited" and "one of a kind", .

I already bought one last year and I had it in black. When the new colours are advertised to be ready in store, I quickly grabbed them in no time. Now I just need to wait for my new navy blue and pure white scarves to arrive. Excited!

My previous purchase

If you ask me about how much I love it, I will simply say a TOTAL LOVE without any hesitation. Why?

1. The chiffon material requires no ironing. You bole sumbat-sumbat masuk bag, then when you need it, just put in on and you're all ready to go.
2. Very very very lightweight. Believe me. It feels like nothing on your head.
3. Provides neck coverage so that you can style it with other scarf on top.
4. It requires no pin. AT ALL! But will still stay in place.
5. Very versatile and suits most face shapes.

However, if you ask me about the price, memang sangatlah pricey! Sangat! Especially with the currency exchange rate. You boleh beli melambak tudung yang lagi cantik-cantik dekat Malaysia dengan harga sehelai scarf Maysaa ni.

Tapi untuk para pengguna tudung bawal yang tegar yang sangatlah malas nak menggayakan tudung macam I ni, I will certainly recommend you to go and get this item. You won't regret. Trust me! :)

May I see you in Heaven?

Assalamualaikum,

Saya kembali lagi.hehe. Macam ni la jadinya bila mood nak mengadu membuak-buak, hari-hari pun ada benda nak cerita. Nasib kau la ye kena dengar. Hari ni ada benda interesting yang nak kongsi. As if you don't know me yang suka membebel ni lah kan.hehehe..:p

I've told you about my part time work at Susan's house yesterday, haven't I? Actually, I was not alone there. Ada lagi sorang jejaka (perghh, tetiba panggil jejaka) dari Britain buat part time as a painter dekat situ. Nama dia John.

John is a professional snowboarder back in his hometown in England. Tapi tahun ni dia merantau ke Australia sambil bekerja part time and at the same time berjalan-jalan. He has been working with Susan for a couple of months and now that he completed his painting job, he will leave in next to no time.

He once shared this video that has him inside.

Memang star snowboarding lah dia ni.

So yesterday it was time for me to wave him goodbye. Sedey jugak dah takde membe nak borak-borak time keje nanti.huhu. Then he said, "Have a wonderful life Amirah. Who knows I may be re-born as a Muslim and see you in Heaven". I was speechless and amazed when he actually said that. I really did. I terus senyum, dan mengaminkan doa John tu dari dalam hati.

Doa I semoga satu hari nanti, Allah kurniakan rahmat dan hidayah untuk John lafazkan Kalimah Syahadah dan memenuhi kata-kata dia untuk dilahirkan semula sebagai seorang Muslim. Bukan ke setiap lafaz kalimah syahadah saudara baru itu ibarat kelahiran semula? Siapa tahu mungkin John salah seorang yang terpilih nanti? Rahmat Allah tak ada sempadan bukan?

Sedangkan insan yang tidak dilahirkan sebagai Muslim tu pun diberikan percikan perasaan untuk dimatikan sebagai seorang Islam. Apatah lagi kita yang sememangnya dianugerahkan rahmat dilahirkan di dalam Islam. Memang menjadi impian besar untuk turut dimatikan di dalam Islam dan Iman. 

"Semoga rahmat dan anugerah itu tidak ditarik semula dan semoga ada peluang untuk I jumpa John di syurga sebagai saudara seagama. Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin."

Psst:

Kalau dengar John cakap rasa macam tengah tengok Jude Law berlakon dalam cerita The Holiday. Very Brit-ain. Cair beb!! hahaha. Awak, jangan marah haa. Bukan ape pun, star-struck je ni..:p

Kalau macam ni punya gaya siapa tak cair kan.
Pergi tengok cerita ni. Best!!=))

Hati berbunga-bunga

Assalamualaikum everybody,

I woke up fresh in a very bright and cheerful atmosphere today, put on the most vivid smile on my face when I look into the mirror and told myself to be positively cheery for the whole day. I pegang prinsip tak perlu jadi Miss Universe untuk nampak cantik. All you need are truthful heart, sincere smiles, and genuine personality, then you will naturally look beautiful to many.

Hari ni I kerja dekat rumah Susan. Kerja part time cuci rumah orang saje.hehe. Ohh, I belom introduce you dekat my lady boss lagi kan? She is a very charming Australian lady living alone in her huge house. So once a week, I akan pergi buat domestic cleaning dekat rumah dia. Kemas dapur, vacuum rumah, mop lantai, cuci toilet and buat beddings. Senang kan? =)

Lady boss.  I jemput dia datang makan-makan Aidilfitri.
Suka bukan main. :)

Semua kerja I siap cepat hari ni. Since still awal lagi and I pun takde pape nak rushing, I tolong Susan bersihkan sekitar swimming pool dia. Semua pokok dekat garden belakang dah berbunga. I was sooooo exciteddd and Susan noticed how I really love them. She picked one and handed it over to me. She said, "Hey princess, here's a beautiful flower to someone beautiful". Awwww, isn't that lovely?

She gave me this.
They remain in buds till the day they withered.

I was flattered. First, yes, she sometimes calls me princess because she googled the meaning behind the name "Amirah" and she was thrilled upon finding out that it means a princess. Dia taktau ada beribu-ribu manusia nama Amirah all around the world. And this princess is cleaning her shower. hahaha. How funny. Second, beautiful to her definitely describes the inner part. And I'm glad.. :)

Puas I belajar pasal bunga hari ni. Ada Banksia, Banksia Rose, Geranium, Azalea and my most favourite is Julia's Rose. Omg, this is the first time I ever seen a very exquisite and unusual rose. The colour has a combination of brown, cream, caramel and peach. With mild fragrance and and the size is almost as big as my face. Cantek gila!!! Terus berangan nak guna Julia's Rose dekat bilik pengantin nanti (taktau bila tu). hahahahaha. Over tau!! :p 

My current favourite flower. Julia's Rose.
Gorgeous!

Doa untuk Ibu

Dear diary,

I just got back from a short meeting with my supervisor just now. As predicted, more mathematical stuffs to be done in short. Deriving, integrating, applying theories and so on, they are things that will keep me busy at least for two weeks time. That's the update for my on going research so far.

Owh btw, did I tell you about Kelly's Baby Shower event which was held yesterday? Just to keep it short, it was a huge success! We had a glorious time planning, organizing and hosting a memorable event like this especially to someone like Kelly who is such a darling sister to everyone here in Wollongong. All the laughs, and even the tears, we believe they were all signs of joy. Everybody loves you Kelly!

The backdrop

Me and stunning mummy Kelly

The white crew
(From left: Aimy, Kak Suzana, me, Fatin)

Dalam banyak-banyak benda yang related to this event, I just cant take this song out of my mind up until now. Doa untuk Ibu by Ungu. Really! I kept that song in replay mode until I fall asleep listening to the soothing melody, touching lyrics and calming voice of the singer.

Dengar dan hayati, pasti tersentuh.

Specially dedicated to my mum, I love you.

oh ibu terima kasih
untuk kasih sayang yang tak pernah usai
tulus cintamu takkan mampu
untuk terbalaskan
oh ibu semoga tuhan
memberikan kedamaian dalam hidupmu
putih kasihmu kan abadi
dalam hidupku

Quote of the day #1

An excerpt of my previous status in FB that has been posted on the same date two years ago.

This quote happened to appear at one corner of my FB wall just now. And I found it interesting by some means. I really can't recall why I wrote this at the first place two years ago. Or it was randomly written without anything related to me.

An update to tell you I am still alive

Puh! Puh! Puh! 

Tiup habuk and sawang. hahaha. 

Nampak sangat dah lama tak melawat kawasan. Busy? Maybe. Lazy? Definitely. Everytime I log into this virtual personal record of mine, my mind stops working right there. Hmm, when you have so many things to tell, you normally ended up no telling anything at all. Agree?

One interesting thing to share, the task that I have been working on since a year ago has finally successfully completed. Alhamdulillah. The programming now looking and working good. Satu masalah telah selesai. Tapi tak boleh nak suka sangat because I know I'm gonna be very busy with more upcoming loads after this.

It took me a year to come out with ONLY this.
Gila tak?  @___@

Update about my carbo diet, I had lost one kilogram after one week of not consuming carbo. Tapi kadang-kadang main tipu jugak. Ada dua hari yang I makan nasik. Lauk moden semua I boleh pejam mata, tapi kalau sambal sardin dengan kangkung goreng belacan, makan pulak dengan nasik panas, memang tak boleh tahan beb. Tewas!

The next day pulak, ada jemputan makan lauk kurma daging, sambal belacan, ulam timun, ikan pekasam, dengan sayur campur goreng pedal. Hambik kau!! Cukup kemelayuan tak camtu? And you expect me to stand on my carbo diet, still? Memang tak aahhh!! So, there goes my konon diet-tak-makan-nasik citt poodah!!haha.

Tapi lepas tu kelam kabut lah pergi gym burn total calorie dalam 200, and total distance about 15 kilometres (threadmill, elliptic trainer, and bicycle). Alhamdulillah tak mengecewakan. 1kg now gone! Phewww!! Minggu ni I dah boleh start makan nasik balik cuma quarter dari yang biasa. Mari kita lihat apa keputusan penimbangan hari Jumaat ni ye. Nervous nervous! hihi..:p

Intensive carbo diet starts today

Hello hello,

Hari ni saya dengan rasminya telah mengisytiharkan diet secara hebat kepada diri sendiri? Why? Lepas belek-belek beberapa gambar terkini yang amik masa raya, sesungguhnya saya terkejut tengok close-up photo sendiri. Serius rasa macam, OMG, tu dulang ke muka?

Terbaek lah Mad capture gambar dulang ni. Buat sedar diri.
-__-"

Ni pulak kerja Zaki. Tima kasih lah bro!
Terasa macam muka size XL tapi pakai tudung size S.  T__T

This is one thing I don't like being near anybody with advanced technology camera. Kalau amik dari jauh memang best! Sebab gambar comfirm cantek gila. Tapi bila zoom sedekat-dekatnya, hambik kau!! Segala jerawat, parut, taik lalat, rona-rona hitam, sampaikan ke liang roma pun boleh nampak. Aduii..

Cela-cela kat muka tu jangan cakap lah. Bersepah-sepah. Tapi saiz muka tu yang paling tak boleh blah. Besaq gila habaq hang!! So, starting from today, 5th September 2011, I will try to reduce at least 5 extra kilos from my current weight to make it 50kg.

Ini bukan main-main lagi dah. Sebelum ni sedar je yang berat dah bertambah dengan sewenang-wenangnya, tapi buat-buat macam tak bersalah. Tapi lepas dapat teguran kasih sayang, kini saya bertekad. 5 kilos please go away yea.. fast!